Poop Shute

Yesterday was a so-so day.

After finally falling asleep around 6 am I slept until noon to catch up. Then I... didn't do much. I made sure to do the things I've been doing that have been helping me to cope, but not much else.

I went for a little walk. I got a little sun. I played a little guitar. I took my vitamins and drank plenty of water. I made sure to smile a few times, even though I didn't want to. Essentially, I spent most of the day still kind of recovering from the panic attack last night. I wasn't in a bad mood per se, but I couldn't seem to shake that last little shadow of the night before. It lasted until early this evening.

In the evening, Ryan came and took me to a little coffee shop over by ASU and we just sat and read and talked and joked around. It was nice and quiet. It was the highlight of my day really.

I've also been doing the Tony Robbins program again. For those of you laughing at me right now, I have to tell you that I am a HUGE skeptic when it comes to those self-help motivational guys. I've seen and heard a few before that made me laugh out loud. This guy is different. He doesn't throw a bunch of hippy positive-thinking crap at you. He doesn't actually tell you anything that you don't already know. He just reminds you of how your behavior operates and why, and puts it into context for you. We all know on some level what's going on inside our heads, even if we're lying about it, the truth is in there. He just helps you dig that out and shows you how to change the stuff you don't like for yourself.

In fact, Guillermo touched on a couple of the key things in the comment he wrote on yesterday's post. He mentions interfering with patterns and changing associations and whatnot. Those are the two biggest elements of what Tony Robbins gets at. It's really helpful stuff.