Poop Shute

Sometimes I hate everyone.

Sometimes I am so godd@mn angry that I just want to scream at the top of my lungs, punch holes in the walls and throw things.

Sometimes I want to take a baseball bat and smash every thing in sight.

Problem is I'm an insomniac and this bullsh*t invariably happens when that kind of noise in an apartment complex can bring serious consequences. More serious than all my stuff being broken anyway.

I'm in a horrible fvcking mood and I've got nobody but the lazy godd@mn cats, and my blog to share it with. Actually scratch that. Sorry, to my handful of readers, but you're getting it. The cats, like my girls, are sleeping.

My insomnia has always been a small source of bitterness for me. Even as a kid, doing the sleepover at a friend's house thing I was very often the last one awake in the house. Having this problem among people who do not is a very lonely thing. Nights like this when I am awake and pissed off are very long and very lonely nights.

Tonight I was ready to fall asleep around 10:30. Insanely rare for me, but not unheard of. Instead of turning in I spent time with the girls, because on a normal week night we generally don't have more than a few hours together before they go to sleep. Still, at 12:30 even, I was tired. I was so tired, in fact, that I started getting slappy like you do when you're past the point of being tired.

Now I'm pissed off and sleep is the last thing I am capable of. Meg and I had a stupid little fight. As soon as the fight was beginning to resolve Meg announced "I should go to sleep" to which I responded by saying very curtly "fine, goodnight" and slamming my water cup into the kitchen sink. I had kind of hoped that might elicit some kind of response. But I got nothing.

Now my options are as follows:

A) wake Meg up and get her to comfort me and keep me company for a bit so I can calm down enough to sleep. In which case she will be up way late and be pissy and miserable all day today at work.

or

B) wake Noel up --etc. This option is crap. No offence to her. See yesterday's post for expanation.

or

C) sit here and piss and moan to my blog, futz around until I pass out, and then wait until she reads this at work and is pissy and miserable all day. Maybe not pissy and miserable, but she'll definitely be irritated.

I guess, since I've published this, you know which option I went with.

At least with option C she got some sleep. I may be angry as hell, and even resent the ability to get a good night's sleep, but I understand the desire for it.

COMMENTS

Hey joey whates up dude its me luis you know the memos littel brothur one qustion when is your wedding becuse memo forgot the date see ya later dude peace.
Luisclopez 08.30.05 - 9:53 am

Good decision. Not sleeping sucks though.
Beno 08.30.05 - 4:15 pm

Hey Luis! How are you, buddy?
The wedding is October 15th and if your brother isn't there, I will kill him.
...or maybe I'll just make him feel really guilty. yeah, that's the one!
Joey 08.30.05 - 5:22 pm

BTW I am feeling better. I apologize for the airing of dirty laundry. I don't do it too often, but it's not nice to those involved, or to the readers.
Sorry.
Joey 08.30.05 - 5:23 pm

I don't mind the dirty laundry but it will cost you at least 75 cents per load.
therealdavid 08.30.05 - 6:42 pm

Seventy five cents?!?!? NICE! Our complex charges $1.00 per wash AND $1.00 per dry.
WHAT A BARGAIN!!!
Joey 08.31.05 - 12:17 am

What a bargain for me.
Brian Y. 08.31.05 - 2:28 am

be a man joey and do I get to attend to?
I promise to sleep with the bride and kiss the groom...wait...no...wait..
mulk 08.31.05 - 2:32 am

hey thanmks man i;ll be there and i;ll tell memo about about the tatoo thing okay late love your frainds littelbrother luisclopez dont worry man me and my bro are on your side incause you dont want to do it late.=
Luisclopez 08.31.05 - 10:00 am

The going rate here is $.75 a wash and $.50 a dry.
therealdavid 08.31.05 - 10:41 am

1.25 a wash and 1.00 a dry here. But that is ending very soon. We picked up the keys to our condo today No more laundromat. *dance party*
Josh 08.31.05 - 3:47 pm

CONGRATS TO THE CROHN-BOT!!!
Joey 08.31.05 - 4:08 pm

I don't pay per load of laundry, but I still take advantage of the heat to dry many things on the clothesline. Er, the cable line.
Guillermo 08.31.05 - 6:56 pm

Well, I don't pay for any of it at all. We use Meg's parents house down the street, but we might not if it weren't so GODDAMN insanely expensive.
Joey 09.01.05 - 5:21 am