Wow. Just wow.
When did I become so horribly bad at reading people? I used to have good people radar, but apparently I'm just socially retarded now.
I just made a heartfelt confession that I thought would be better received than it was. Not that it went as badly as it could have, I guess, but it certainly didn't go in my favor. I go back and forth on this one, but I'd like to believe that everything happens for a reason. I thought something was happening for a reason with someone. It turned out not to be the case. She says it's just not going to happen. Ever. I'm having a hard time with that one.
This next one was easier to take, but no less surprising. I come to find out that the waitress that I could've sworn was flirting with me tonight has a long-term boyfriend. In itself, I guess that doesn't necessarily mean she was not flirting with me, but I'll give her that much credit that it does. It's just that she wasn't even my waitress, so I know she wasn't hustling for higher tips. We discovered we had mutual friends, so we started chatting, and she actually came and sat down with me for a bit. Oh well. Just me seeing what I wanted to see, I suppose.
Ugh. For many more reasons than what I just listed above, I am hanging up the dating bag again for a bit. I kind of needed to date for a little while, I think. You know, get a little rebounding out of my system. Well, that phase is over now. For the first time in my life, I am whole. I really am. I've always sort of used relationships to fill a hole in me, but right now I don't have one at all, and I'm happier than I have ever been. The careers are going great, money is rolling in, and I'm doing it all by myself and for myself.
Anyway, I'm on my feet and clear-headed again. The dating game has been a lot of fun lately, but I'm just spending too much time and energy on what has amounted to a completely fruitless search. I've always been of the opinion that sometimes if you stop searching you'll trip over what you've always been looking for.
Until then, I'm living it up on my own.
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