Early this morning as I was waking up from a dream, my subconcious was trying to tell me something, I think.
In the last moments of this dream I watched as a guy who looked a lot like me did a back flip into an empty swimming pool and landed flat on his back. As he sailed through the air, he yelled this to me in a laughing, and very sarcastic voice:
"HEY JOEY, WHY DON'T YOU DO A SWAN DIVE INTO AN EMPTY POOL WITH YOUR HEALTH! THAT SOUNDS LIKE A GREAT IDEA!"
I haven't really been taking the best care of myself lately. I have been up and down off the emotional floor a lot, and the things that I do for myself that keep me together have been slipping. I haven't been eating very well. I haven't exercised in about two weeks. Meditation has not even been attempted in the same amount of time. I know that it's important to let the feelings run their course in this situation, and not fight them, but I think I may be letting myself wallow in them a touch too much.
Okay, message received. Today I will get my act together.
I also need to find a free or very cheap therapist. Any ideas?
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