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Tonight I leave for Boston. I have mixed feelings about this trip, but it should be fun.

See you next monday, with pictures and some good stories, I hope.

COMMENTS:

Boston is fantastic.
Josh 02.15.06 - 11:35 pm

Interference doesn't "only" work when you are conscious. You seem to be using the ego, id, and superego definitions of consciousness. I believe that there isn't a hierarchical separation of "drives" but that the mind is more like an orchestra with different instruments and even whole sections playing at different volumes at different times. Believing that when you're unconscious you are suddenly stripped of mental "defenses" is still self-defeating. You're not at war here with your own mind. You're trying to align your desires with existing processes. I think.
Guillermo 02.20.06 - 7:25 pm

I don't think you understood me quite right. Unless you can come to the realization that you are dreaming, you are not in any kind of control of your mental state when you are asleep. Things that might normally seem perfectly mundane may scare the sh*t out of you, or mosters that don't exist in reality might pop out. Most people aren't able to control their responses to these stimuli in dreams, unless they become aware that it is a dream, and even then, sometimes, the fear response can be uncontrollable.
In my case, the bang in the middle of the night put me into the car wreck in my dreams and created the very physical "shock" response in my body. This caused me to wake up screaming. That is what I meant by not being able to interrupt that pattern while unconcious.
I'm not suggesting I'm at war here, and I don't even know why you said that. I'm saying that I'm learning how to break that pattern in the waking hours, but it's hard to prevent something that happens in my mind when I am asleep. I'd like to see anybody prevent nightmares, or even less likely, prevent an irrational reaction to a nightmare when one does not know it is a nightmare.
Joey 02.21.06 - 4:51 pm

About ten minutes after I wrote all that last comment, I realized where the miscommunication happened.
Gurg said: "You seem to be using the ego, id, and superego definitions of consciousness."
Not at all. I was using the awake or asleep definitions of conciousness.
In that previous post about the waking up screaming, I meant to say that in sleep all our guards are dropped. Nothing at all about id or ego or any of that.
Joey 02.22.06 - 2:13 am

Oh! Also, a post about Boston is forth-coming. My picture hosting site was being flakey this afternoon, so I gave up and will try again tomorrow.
Joey 02.22.06 - 2:21 am

I'm not sure where this all went wackey and I'm not sure if you've discussed this in person.
Joey experienced sever trauma which left a very big "footprint" on his mind and body. We all know this as Operant Conditioning. Our "body" I believe also has the capacity to store residual memories inside of it, to reinforce learning I'm sure.
Joey needs to work on removing the association of loud bangs with the accident. Ideally this is pretty simple if you ask me but is joey ready to let go?
mulk 02.23.06 - 1:06 pm